I think what happened is that I experienced a release for myself of the resentment and resistance I had built against my mother. When I realized I had created that and could drop that, stop putting energy toward keeping that separation dynamic alive, I gained that energy back. I was no longer constricted by ‘being against’ her, and I could see her as she is, not the story I made up about her. I felt the urge to spend time with her because I got out of myself and the need to be against what she represented to me, and instead became curious about who she really is. Its still difficult at times to be with her because old conditioning and ‘emotional triggers die hard’, but I have this experience of release to ground me back in what’s real right now and continue to let go of the past. I hope that’s a little helpful :-)